Terrible future

Tonight, I think, I had the worst dream I ever dreamt. My mother died. It was not a nightmare in the horror kind of way, it was more like a dramatic movie when a character, a very loved character, dies. With the only exception that the movie never ended. I actually felt that I didn't know at all what to do. I never felt anything like it before. I wanted to cry for ever. I think I did. When I woke up I was so unknowingly relieved that it was just a dream. I am very thankful for it being a dream.

I think I changed my way of thinking a bit. I never gave my mother much thought before. She was sort of just there all the time. I never questioned her existence. I never want that to happen again.

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